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poetryWhen despair for the world grows in me
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.
universal trauma cupboard
Dec. 27th, 2024 07:34 amsheepcountedi dreamed something about getting permission to enter a secret forbidden room in a college campus and later helping an injured coolguy escape his clique, and then there was something about some kind of resort where baba and i got in the elevator first and were immediately separated from our family
baba was like "if nobody's moving then we'll go ahead first" and pressed the button and it got halfway up and stuck for a second before continuing but that second was enough so we could hear them frantically pressing the button below us
later i was i'm not sure where but i was playing a fighter game where you picked two characters to fight with and the victory animation was for them both together and one of my guys was this giant red man with a tail
so in one fight the red man was holding up the winner girl like yeah!! and in another match he was cradling the winner guy with his tail and rocking him back and forth
i wanted to show whimsea how cute this was but as i was passing through mama's kitchen i overheard aunts talking to my brother about some universal experience he didn't get as a child so i asked what they were talking about
apparently all children at some point get trauma from being locked in a cupboard? so i told my aunt that i have actually done that to him before, maybe he just forgot
also i ended up wielding a flyswatter and fighting off infinite flies
the end
baba was like "if nobody's moving then we'll go ahead first" and pressed the button and it got halfway up and stuck for a second before continuing but that second was enough so we could hear them frantically pressing the button below us
later i was i'm not sure where but i was playing a fighter game where you picked two characters to fight with and the victory animation was for them both together and one of my guys was this giant red man with a tail
so in one fight the red man was holding up the winner girl like yeah!! and in another match he was cradling the winner guy with his tail and rocking him back and forth
i wanted to show whimsea how cute this was but as i was passing through mama's kitchen i overheard aunts talking to my brother about some universal experience he didn't get as a child so i asked what they were talking about
apparently all children at some point get trauma from being locked in a cupboard? so i told my aunt that i have actually done that to him before, maybe he just forgot
also i ended up wielding a flyswatter and fighting off infinite flies
the end
melonfish
Dec. 20th, 2024 04:57 amsheepcountedi dreamed that i'd dreamed of a delicacy that was a pufferfish grown inside a melon so it became a melonfish, and then mama learned about it and i tried to explain what a pufferfish was but for some reason she couldn't understand... also she threw away some of my snacks but decided other ones were okay?
later i tried to play a multiplayer ds game with my brother? unsure how we managed to control two characters on a single ds but it was a game where we had to race to specific areas where everyone's characters would get sent bouncing like on a trampoline and we had to count while in the air?
i couldn't figure out how to play and accidentally exited the game on the third try, but it only allowed three tries a day, a fact which i had to tell my disappointed brother
then i belatedly remembered they were serving free food in the cafeteria but it turned out my brother and mama and my roommate had all eaten already??
so i went to the cafeteria and there was an impossible to reach ladder hanging from the ceiling in the dining area which used to be more accessible and also led to my room? someone said they had no idea how it'd ended up this way
entering the actual food area, i found mr last from work lying asleep on a couch or something, it was hard to tell because the entire cafeteria was covered in some kinda coarse blue cloth
this turned out to be a prank, but either way i could no longer access any of the food aside from some desserts near mr last (i accidentally woke him up as i was trying to leave because i tripped on the tarp)
oh there was also a part where i found my stuffed animals all covered in tears because my cat had been using them as kneading pads
later i tried to play a multiplayer ds game with my brother? unsure how we managed to control two characters on a single ds but it was a game where we had to race to specific areas where everyone's characters would get sent bouncing like on a trampoline and we had to count while in the air?
i couldn't figure out how to play and accidentally exited the game on the third try, but it only allowed three tries a day, a fact which i had to tell my disappointed brother
then i belatedly remembered they were serving free food in the cafeteria but it turned out my brother and mama and my roommate had all eaten already??
so i went to the cafeteria and there was an impossible to reach ladder hanging from the ceiling in the dining area which used to be more accessible and also led to my room? someone said they had no idea how it'd ended up this way
entering the actual food area, i found mr last from work lying asleep on a couch or something, it was hard to tell because the entire cafeteria was covered in some kinda coarse blue cloth
this turned out to be a prank, but either way i could no longer access any of the food aside from some desserts near mr last (i accidentally woke him up as i was trying to leave because i tripped on the tarp)
oh there was also a part where i found my stuffed animals all covered in tears because my cat had been using them as kneading pads
love nikki
Dec. 19th, 2024 05:40 amsheepcountedi dreamed some sort of apocalypse was happening to my cutesy nikki-esque world and for some reason people thought i was some sort of criminal on the run?
they never caught me though
i had more details about this dream but i nodded off again and now it's a few hours later and i forgot it
they never caught me though
i had more details about this dream but i nodded off again and now it's a few hours later and i forgot it
vincent
Dec. 17th, 2024 05:53 amsheepcountedi dreamed that vincent from silent hill was doing something extremely shady but his one bottom line was he wouldn't hurt kids, so he shot this guy who was gonna shoot this kid who was teamed up with the good guys
i say "good guys" but it was one kid and one adult and i don't remember what they were doing exactly but they did learn that whoever told them the elevator wasn't working was a big fat liar, and the guy after them tried to shoot them before they could get to it so the whole encounter happened on the emergency stairs
vincent just kinda showed up like dude you're making me interrupt my own evil plans for this ugh
the stairs were particularly weird because the rest of the dream took place in what appeared to be an open air amusement park with no tall buildings?
there was a big family....or multiple families? friends with families? anyway they were all there and for some reason the children were getting put on a bus and some of them clearly didn't want to be on it but the parents were like "don't worry it'll be fine" but i had the ominous feeling it wasn't
i also ran into my bearded newest coworker who'd apparently been helping out around here and it turned out if you filled out details on this little form you could get paid and he was absolutely doing that
the only other thing i remember is a part where it was me and kodi the dog and a teenager and we found the entrance to what appeared to be a mine tunnel but it was also the enemy's hideout probably because the enemies were right behind us and i was like, quick, run!! and i jumped above the entrance to climb onto the dirt above the door
but the kid ran into the tunnel and died and the scene started over and this time the dog climbed up after me and the kid barely managed to get up after him
and that's all i remember
darn you vincent
i say "good guys" but it was one kid and one adult and i don't remember what they were doing exactly but they did learn that whoever told them the elevator wasn't working was a big fat liar, and the guy after them tried to shoot them before they could get to it so the whole encounter happened on the emergency stairs
vincent just kinda showed up like dude you're making me interrupt my own evil plans for this ugh
the stairs were particularly weird because the rest of the dream took place in what appeared to be an open air amusement park with no tall buildings?
there was a big family....or multiple families? friends with families? anyway they were all there and for some reason the children were getting put on a bus and some of them clearly didn't want to be on it but the parents were like "don't worry it'll be fine" but i had the ominous feeling it wasn't
i also ran into my bearded newest coworker who'd apparently been helping out around here and it turned out if you filled out details on this little form you could get paid and he was absolutely doing that
the only other thing i remember is a part where it was me and kodi the dog and a teenager and we found the entrance to what appeared to be a mine tunnel but it was also the enemy's hideout probably because the enemies were right behind us and i was like, quick, run!! and i jumped above the entrance to climb onto the dirt above the door
but the kid ran into the tunnel and died and the scene started over and this time the dog climbed up after me and the kid barely managed to get up after him
and that's all i remember
darn you vincent
dog bakery
Dec. 10th, 2024 05:49 amsheepcountedi dreamed i was living in this white fancy-looking apartment(?) and my parents/siblings were intermittently there along with roommates who also intermittently existed
i picked up a blanket covered in cat litter and went to the nearest trash can to try to shake the litter out and then a roommate showed up (all my schroedinger's roommates were asian) to extremely passive aggressively call me out for getting litter on her laundry, which she'd decided to pile up on the floor...next to the trash can...
she got over it after scolding me for way too long and then proceeded to show me this framed...diploma thing? except more importantly she'd put official modao(?) arts in it, but then she pulled one out to show it to me more clearly so i guess they weren't very firmly set
every once in a while i'd catch glimpses of bl stuff, or something that was normal before would be replaced with yaoi? why was there so much yaoi, i blame my sister
at one point i think my mom had a lesbian encounter with some lady i'm not sure i recognized? at another point scary boss was sitting with another older lady in what was clearly the piano room back home and mama saw a hole on the older lady's cheek by her ear and climbed into her lap? to get a better look at it??
mama was weird in this dream
we also tried to go out for sushi but i don't think we ever made it
at one point i was sitting outside for whatever reason and saw a cosplayer and a couple professional people rushing by for their shoot, and they were saying the cosplayer was some lady from one of the popular mobages like wuwa or something but it definitely wasn't one i know much about
at another point we ended up in a small bakery and a whole family came in and took almost all the goods but i also realized during this that it was a dog bakery so all the goods were for dogs? also everyone in this bakery was black but more importantly the chef was a buff shirtless apron man
also across the street through the store window i could see a store selling...fish? for dogs? i honestly couldn't tell and spent like five minutes trying to read the window sign out loud because they'd overpunned it and none of it made sense
my brother was around a lot in this dream but more as an accompanying character and i can't remember any specific things he was doing
i picked up a blanket covered in cat litter and went to the nearest trash can to try to shake the litter out and then a roommate showed up (all my schroedinger's roommates were asian) to extremely passive aggressively call me out for getting litter on her laundry, which she'd decided to pile up on the floor...next to the trash can...
she got over it after scolding me for way too long and then proceeded to show me this framed...diploma thing? except more importantly she'd put official modao(?) arts in it, but then she pulled one out to show it to me more clearly so i guess they weren't very firmly set
every once in a while i'd catch glimpses of bl stuff, or something that was normal before would be replaced with yaoi? why was there so much yaoi, i blame my sister
at one point i think my mom had a lesbian encounter with some lady i'm not sure i recognized? at another point scary boss was sitting with another older lady in what was clearly the piano room back home and mama saw a hole on the older lady's cheek by her ear and climbed into her lap? to get a better look at it??
mama was weird in this dream
we also tried to go out for sushi but i don't think we ever made it
at one point i was sitting outside for whatever reason and saw a cosplayer and a couple professional people rushing by for their shoot, and they were saying the cosplayer was some lady from one of the popular mobages like wuwa or something but it definitely wasn't one i know much about
at another point we ended up in a small bakery and a whole family came in and took almost all the goods but i also realized during this that it was a dog bakery so all the goods were for dogs? also everyone in this bakery was black but more importantly the chef was a buff shirtless apron man
also across the street through the store window i could see a store selling...fish? for dogs? i honestly couldn't tell and spent like five minutes trying to read the window sign out loud because they'd overpunned it and none of it made sense
my brother was around a lot in this dream but more as an accompanying character and i can't remember any specific things he was doing
salamander
Dec. 9th, 2024 05:32 amsheepcountedi dreamed whimsea's dog used to be afraid of cheese but he'd recently gotten over it so we went to my room to look at cheese stuff (it looked nothing like my room, it was the only room on the second floor of a very white building)
i also had a picture of bowser for my wall? anyway whimsea then enlisted me to help cook on saturday for the party she was throwing because she'd invited...i think a bunch of moms and their children?
we also went out to do something or other but i couldn't find my shoes, only a pair of rainboots, one of which was adult size and one of which was for kids? when i put them on they both fit but i had one on backwards somehow and there was the implication that they were both left boots
we went out and i suddenly was like oh no i forgot my keys!! so i ran back and knocked on the door and my dad answered and i ran past xiaoyi and then realized my keys were in my pocket the whole time but i went to my room anyway just for appearances
at some point a girl's leg caught fire and she climbed onto the landing and i started worrying because there was a pile of flammable paintings there (she was fine)
anyway so i got in the car and whimsea started driving and i realized somebody's grandmother was transformed into a giant salamander (?) in the back (there were no seats, this was some kind of van?) and whimsea wanted me to ask her a question but how??
we also passed a car that had popo in it, only she looked a lot more shriveled and tired for some reason
that's all i remember
i also had a picture of bowser for my wall? anyway whimsea then enlisted me to help cook on saturday for the party she was throwing because she'd invited...i think a bunch of moms and their children?
we also went out to do something or other but i couldn't find my shoes, only a pair of rainboots, one of which was adult size and one of which was for kids? when i put them on they both fit but i had one on backwards somehow and there was the implication that they were both left boots
we went out and i suddenly was like oh no i forgot my keys!! so i ran back and knocked on the door and my dad answered and i ran past xiaoyi and then realized my keys were in my pocket the whole time but i went to my room anyway just for appearances
at some point a girl's leg caught fire and she climbed onto the landing and i started worrying because there was a pile of flammable paintings there (she was fine)
anyway so i got in the car and whimsea started driving and i realized somebody's grandmother was transformed into a giant salamander (?) in the back (there were no seats, this was some kind of van?) and whimsea wanted me to ask her a question but how??
we also passed a car that had popo in it, only she looked a lot more shriveled and tired for some reason
that's all i remember
residen farmville
Dec. 3rd, 2024 06:09 amsheepcountedi dreamed something involving resident evil and farming sims and also my mom, but i forgot everything
house flipper
Dec. 1st, 2024 05:38 amsheepcountedi dreamed i was apparently going to live in this three story wooden house that was in serious need of immediate repair, and i sent photos to chat and red was like "this is a good house, i believe in you"
the house was in such need of repair that the wood had rotted through in places
there was a whole lot more than this but my cat chose violence this morning
there was also something about trying to jump onto a boat but i had to unequip my fur coat for it to start moving, and another part involving at least one aunt?
the house was in such need of repair that the wood had rotted through in places
there was a whole lot more than this but my cat chose violence this morning
there was also something about trying to jump onto a boat but i had to unequip my fur coat for it to start moving, and another part involving at least one aunt?
copypasta
Nov. 29th, 2024 05:30 amsheepcountedi dreamed i was trapped in this strange alternate dimension where all the clouds were copypasted and constantly moving, falling to the ground to create fir trees only to start dissipating before they were completed
other people were also trapped here, as well as a gas station and a corner store and a couple other buildings which fell from the sky
there was also a sleeping area with bunk beds and someone had left spy family merch on my bunk? also there were a lot of souvenirs and things we could get but many looked ai generated but also there was no shopkeeper so they were free
i made friends with a pair of succubus sisters and had sushi with them at one point, and they said they wouldn't charge me for their time
at another point i picked up a sheaf of papers which turned out to be investigation results for this one rich guy, but i got to the house just as he and his wife were leaving, and the wife basically told me to f off but in polite language
but they split up at one point and i kept following the rich guy and he took the papers because unlike his wife he was actually extremely invested
that's all i remember
oh wait there was also a scene in the dorm area where i put down my hair and this girl was like omg your hair is so long!!!!!11
other people were also trapped here, as well as a gas station and a corner store and a couple other buildings which fell from the sky
there was also a sleeping area with bunk beds and someone had left spy family merch on my bunk? also there were a lot of souvenirs and things we could get but many looked ai generated but also there was no shopkeeper so they were free
i made friends with a pair of succubus sisters and had sushi with them at one point, and they said they wouldn't charge me for their time
at another point i picked up a sheaf of papers which turned out to be investigation results for this one rich guy, but i got to the house just as he and his wife were leaving, and the wife basically told me to f off but in polite language
but they split up at one point and i kept following the rich guy and he took the papers because unlike his wife he was actually extremely invested
that's all i remember
oh wait there was also a scene in the dorm area where i put down my hair and this girl was like omg your hair is so long!!!!!11
brownie drawer
Nov. 22nd, 2024 05:50 amsheepcountedi dreamed something about the tales series and also i was so heavily sunburned that part of my skin was nearly black and a friend ran to get some sort of cream for it while i found the missing part of a brownie recipe machine in the bathroom drawer
it was this tiny mechanical dresser-shaped thing with lots of gears in it and the drawer had like, parts stuck to it to help it slot in or something, but i don't know what it actually did that had to do with brownie recipes
there was also something involving trying to contact mama but instead of simply calling her number i was looking at these various options and tapped one and it gave me a voicemail recording of a video game?
later i was walking with three other people, i think my brother and two of my sister's friends (the two friends were people I've never seen in my life) and passed by this fancy villa where people were loudly discussing their larp party plans (it was a fancy villa you could rent for games like that)
oh wait i was riding a bicycle? not sure if i was riding one the whole time or only as i was passing the villa but either way i had trouble stopping when i got to the yard after it
the yard had this big pink toy car in it, and by that i mean the pink appeared to be some kinda soft felt covering and the car (shaped like an rv) was a four-seater powered by feet
i was trying to figure out how to get the car back to the others by myself, and then i woke up
it was this tiny mechanical dresser-shaped thing with lots of gears in it and the drawer had like, parts stuck to it to help it slot in or something, but i don't know what it actually did that had to do with brownie recipes
there was also something involving trying to contact mama but instead of simply calling her number i was looking at these various options and tapped one and it gave me a voicemail recording of a video game?
later i was walking with three other people, i think my brother and two of my sister's friends (the two friends were people I've never seen in my life) and passed by this fancy villa where people were loudly discussing their larp party plans (it was a fancy villa you could rent for games like that)
oh wait i was riding a bicycle? not sure if i was riding one the whole time or only as i was passing the villa but either way i had trouble stopping when i got to the yard after it
the yard had this big pink toy car in it, and by that i mean the pink appeared to be some kinda soft felt covering and the car (shaped like an rv) was a four-seater powered by feet
i was trying to figure out how to get the car back to the others by myself, and then i woke up